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Sonder Ch. 10 xeno by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 10 xeno

xeno n. the smallest measurable unit of human connection, typically exchanged between passing strangers—a flirtatious glance, a sympathetic nod, a shared laugh about some odd coincidence—moments that are fleeting and random but still contain powerful emotional nutrients that can alleviate the symptoms of feeling alone. “Keep quiet. Just get in.” The voice hisses harshly in my ear again. My mind is spinning, startled and caught in those precious seconds where I can’t register what the hell is going on and all I can hear is bottles smashing and cursing and my heart beating erratically- ba-bump ba-bump ba-bump- &

Sonder Ch. 9 rubatosis by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 9 rubatosis

rubatosis n. the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat, whose tenuous muscular throbbing feels less like a metronome than a nervous ditty your heart is tapping to itself, the kind that people compulsively hum or sing while walking in complete darkness, as if to casually remind the outside world, I’m here, I’m here, I’m here. I approach the run down, motel looking apartment complex slowly. The sun is sinking fast, leaving behind few traces of light and forcing me to be even more cautious. A chill picks up and I can feel the hair on my skin raising and the desire to just floor it is tempting but I hold it back. Going fa

Sonder Ch. 8 heartworm by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 8 heartworm

heartworm n. a relationship or friendship that you can’t get out of your head, which you thought had faded long ago but is still somehow alive and unfinished, like an abandoned campsite whose smoldering embers still have the power to start a forest fire. I step through the front door of Jackson’s place, following him and closing the door behind me. He throws his keys and they clang as they hit a ceramic bowl, the only noise echoing throughout the place. We don’t say anything at first and an air of awkwardness rises around us. Alone and surrounded by no one, the missing years seem to make their present known. He coughs ner

Sonder Ch. 7 semaphorism by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 7 semaphorism

semaphorism n. a conversational hint that you have something personal to say on the subject but don’t go any further—an emphatic nod, a half-told anecdote, an enigmatic ‘I know the feeling’—which you place into conversations like those little flags that warn diggers of something buried underground: maybe a cable that secretly powers your house, maybe a fiberoptic link to some foreign country. He blinks and feeling self-conscious I gulp down a sip of my drink for something to do. My leg is bouncing and I can’t stop nervously tapping the side of the mug with my fingers, the chinking noise sounding off beat

Sonder Ch. 4 the kinda blues by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 4 the kinda blues

the kinda blues n. the sad awareness that the unfolding plot of your life feels new and profound but is not unique, just one of a few dozen possible riffs on the same chord progression, while the tunes reverberating from the jukebox in your chest are all covers of old standards from the Great Emotional Songbook, which is 98% identical to that of the chimpanzee. The only day worse when someone dies, is the day after. When you realize, that yes, this is real. When it really hits that oh, they aren’t coming back. That even though pieces of their life are still lying around, like my father’s coat draped lazily over the couch, the ha

Sonder Ch. 5 monachopsis by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 5 monachopsis

monachopsis n. the subtle but persistent feeling of being out of place, as maladapted to your surroundings as a seal on a beach—lumbering, clumsy, easily distracted, huddled in the company of other misfits, unable to recognize the ambient roar of your intended habitat, in which you’d be fluidly, brilliantly, effortlessly at home. Florescent lights buzzed overhead and there was the occasional clack of shoes hitting tiled floor as someone made their way up and down the aisles. Some song with too many poppy beats and digitalized wailing for my taste played softly throughout the stores. I stood in aisle 7 of a Walgreens trying to f

Sonder Ch. 6 Gnossienne by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 6 Gnossienne

gnossienne n. a moment of awareness that someone you’ve known for years still has a private and mysterious inner life, and somewhere in the hallways of their personality is a door locked from the inside, a stairway leading to a wing of the house that you’ve never fully explored—an unfinished attic that will remain maddeningly unknowable to you, because ultimately neither of you has a map, or a master key, or any way of knowing exactly where you stand. A wave of warmth and the smell of coffee hit me as soon as I step inside. The whole place is dressed in warm colors, deep reds and soft browns mixed with accents of purple.

Sonder Ch. 3 Mauerbauertraurigkeit by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 3 Mauerbauertraurigkeit

Mauerbauertraurigkeit n. the inexplicable urge to push people away, even close friends who you really like—as if all your social tastebuds suddenly went numb, leaving you unable to distinguish cheap politeness from the taste of genuine affection, unable to recognize its rich and ambiguous flavors, its long and delicate maturation, or the simple fact that each tasting is double-blind. I lied to everyone. I told them all that my dad had died of a heart attack. It was easier that way, that sort of thing could come out of nowhere, thrash it's way through someone's life and take it- no questions asked. Nobody bothered asking details. It wa

Sonder Ch. 2 Ambedo by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 2 Ambedo

ambedo n. a kind of melancholic trance in which you become completely absorbed in vivid sensory details—raindrops skittering down a window, tall trees leaning in the wind, clouds of cream swirling in your coffee—which leads to a dawning awareness of the haunting fragility of life, a mood whose only known cure is the vuvuzela. The party was wild, there weren’t any other words for it. No words could have captured the thrum of energy, the simple abandon that pounded through the hearts of everyone there. I tried to keep tabs on Riley once we arrived, but it was difficult. She stumbled everywhere, forgetting I was there. Findin

Sonder Ch. 1 Keyframe by ideasRKnockin, literature

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Sonder Ch. 1 Keyframe

keyframe n. a moment that seemed innocuous at the time but ended up marking a diversion into a strange new era of your life—set in motion not by a series of jolting epiphanies but by tiny imperceptible differences between one ordinary day and the next, until entire years of your memory can be compressed into a handful of indelible images—which prevents you from rewinding the past, but allows you to move forward without endless buffering. I am fairly unremarkable in every way. I have frosted flakes for breakfast every morning with little to no variation, nick myself behind the knee nearly every time shaving, and always swear I&r

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I'd Be Pretty If I'd Just... by NerdyAssassin94, literature

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I'd Be Pretty If I'd Just...

I'd be pretty if I'd just smile If I'd cut my hair a certain way And cover myself up in that chemical crap you call make-up But did you ever think that just maybe... I don't wanna be pretty That I just wanna be me Who cares if no one ever calls me beautiful Who cares if I'm never asked to dance Hell I don't even know how to dance anyway I don't care how the world sees me I only care how I see me And I think there's nothing wrong with the girl in the mirror Sure she doesn't smile much but that's cause she's going through hell Her face may look plain without any make-up But that's just the way I like it An old pair

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I am an artist at heart and a writer at soul. I wouldn't be where I am today without writing, it is my sincere joy and passion. Special thanks to my few readers, who put up with all my chaotic creations.

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The Last Song, The Notebook, A Walk to Remember, Keith, Tangled

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Glee

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too many

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ideasRKnockin

Sep 29, 2011

So cliche...

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Currently doing a few writing contests hosted here on dA, oh and I've decided to do... *drum roll* the 100 theme challenge! Oh how cliche, and very stupid, as if I don't have any time already, geez... anyway, I'd like to do this sort of like a graphic novel, brush up on my art skills, and hopefully by doing this it'll help me improve. So for each theme or challenge, or number, or whatnot, whatever you want to call it- there'll be a picture(most likely drawing) I really hope I can get photoshop going on my computer soon, cause that'll turn out to be a real hindrance soon... anyway, these are the challenges. 1. Introduction 2. Love 3.

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ideasRKnockin

Apr 16, 2011

i don't know what to call this one...

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nope, i did not win the writing contest, but I'm fine with that, there's always more, right? um-mum-mum-mum... oh! my neighborhood is having a garage sale sometime next week i believe, so I've been scrounging up some of my artwork and making some new ones to sell- all the money will go to charity. The money will go to the cancer federation (mainly because my grandma died because of cancer, and hey,  i'm writing about cancer) but there will be jars to donate money to the following, relief for Japan, and um...well there'll be more options for donations but I'm not exactly sure what the others are right now, oh well. I'll be taking pictures

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ideasRKnockin

Feb 28, 2011

Wish Me Luck!

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Doing a writing contest! I'm kinda nervous, do I reuse one of my old stuff and edit? Or do i try and come up with something new??? :shrug: only 4 pages, double-spaced....darn restrictions, but whatever. i can make it work. i may post my possible submissions early on here to get some feedback and do any fixin I need before I submit it....i don't know. inspiration swings are fun by the way, though you kinda feel high during them, and then afterwards you feel very boring. and drained. like all the imagination has run out of you and then thats when writer's block comes. :P boo. anyway, :) um, thats it...i think........ yeah, that's it. awkwar